If you have read my previous posts, you know that Sean and I have been trying to start our family for a while now. It turns out that I have PCOS and this journey is proving to be a little more difficult for us than we had originally anticipated. We decided early this summer to give Clomid a try. The first cycle didn't work for us, the second cycle (with a double dose) showed progress, but no baby and the return of the evil red lady, and now I'm heading into my third round of hoping...
Before the Clomid, we had been at this for quite sometime. I've been on progesterone to regulate my cycles, have used an endless amount of OVPK (ovulation predictor kits), have tried acupuncture, and have stared at many a negative pregnancy test. To say it's been frustrating is an understatement.
Right now, I feel like I'm at this very "indifferent" state. Who knows? Maybe it's me protecting myself from my own wishful thinking; from getting my hopes up. Maybe we've been focusing on this for too long. Most likely we'll be one of those couples who "give up" and then it just magically happens. I've decided to go through this round and see what happens. If we're not successful this time, maybe it's time for a break; a reset.
On a positive note, my brother is expecting his first little girl in January with his fiance Monique. We are so excited for them and can't wait to welcome this new little gift into our lives. I'm hoping this might give me a good dose of baby satisfaction. =)
Also, this weekend was my Mom and Dirk's 17th Anniversary! Sean and I got to spend Friday night through Monday morning with my two younger siblings. We got to "play house" with our pretend family of four. With a six year old who never stops talking and a 14 year old teenager permanently attached to electronic devices, it was exhausting! But, we had a really good time. We did crafts, watched movies and really enjoyed the Labor day weekend. I was able to give my sister a ton of my clothes from my High School years (you know, those jeans you're convinced you'll unrealistically fit into again someday) and we did face masks together while Sean and Zach spent 4 hours creating on Minecraft. A nice, welcome reality check =)
Here's to having something to look forward to and to more optimistic thinking...
